I will tell you what he told me
in the years just after the war
as we then called
the second world war
don't lose your arrogance yet he said
you can do that when you're older
lose it too soon and you may
merely replace it with vanity
just one time he suggested
changing the usual order
of the same words in a line of verse
why point out a thing twice
he suggested I pray to the Muse
get down on my knees and pray
right there in the corner and he
said he meant it literally
it was in the days before the beard
and the drink but he was deep
in tides of his own through which he sailed
chin sideways and head tilted like a tacking sloop
he was far older than the dates allowed for
much older than I was he was in his thirties
he snapped down his nose with an accent
I think he had affected in England
as for publishing he advised me
to paper my wall with rejection slips
his lips and the bones of his long fingers trembled
with the vehemence of his views about poetry
he said the great presence
that permitted everything and transmuted it
in poetry was passion
passion was genius and he praised movement and invention
I had hardly begun to read
I asked how can you ever be sure
that what you write is really
any good at all and he said you can't
you can't you can never be sure
you die without knowing
whether anything you wrote was any good
if you have to be sure don't write
W. S. Merwin, Flower & Hand: Poems 1977-1983
Copper Canyon Press, Port Townsend, WA (1997) pp. 155-156]
Now, the writer and academic who inspired Merwin's "Berryman" had a fascinating life, one I will address at a later date. But Gil Allen did not need to explain the history of John Berryman's life to me that day. The lesson was learned. And while I still have not mastered or even begun to skate across the surface of the wide world of poetry, I am still writing. Thank you, John and Gil.
Love!
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"Phillip Levine punched John Berryman in the eye once, breaking a pair of glasses and establishing a lifelong friendship."
hahaha thats hilarious! in researching him for my little essay, i found out some great things about that man. I will have to take a post just to write about his life.
ReplyDeleteanna beth-- what a great post! i look forward to reading more (maybe even a poem or two? dare i ask?)! hope you're doing well.
ReplyDeletethis is my daily attempt to successfully post on your blog.
ReplyDeleteBAH!!!!!!!!!! It worked! Yay!
ReplyDeleteAnd did we read that poem in class? It sounds familiar...
yes, he later read it to the class. but I got the preview!
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